The Comfort Zone
Tokushima City has been my comfort zone. It is a country side located at the Shikoku region and I am located at the capital city of the prefecture. Not too far from work, hospital, clinic, supermarkets, and business establishments, I could say it is just the right place for me. On top of that, the folks are so kind, warm and friendly! I feel like I already belong here. Feels like home.
Lately, I am no longer happy. In fact, since the past year or two. I am happy outside work. Life is simple. But the stress that I endure at work could not be easily relieved by the life I look forward to after work. For the past couple of months, the management has gone worse with us the front liners and the end users suffering its negative effect. I am no longer happy with my co-workers as well. With the yearly movements of staff in and out of our facility, everything has totally changed! It became worse. I actually attempted to quit but I was not too firm with my decision that’s why I’m still here. Besides, it was an abrupt decision out of a strong emotion. So I set all the emotion and commotion aside with one thing on my mind: I will someday set myself free from this wild and wicked working environment.
Last year, I promised myself I will look for better opportunities. In Canada or US maybe. But as days, months passed by I tend to be not confident with my plans because of the global economy and the immigration possibilities in those countries. I was just trying to be practical. After all, I am already happy in Japan.
Around last quarter of 2015、I felt like quitting, again. So it really seems that I am no longer happy here. I miss my mother everyday. I was just holding on to my dream of bringing my mother here and travel around Japan together before I finally end this chapter of my life here in Japan.
Every moment of the day, there was never a time where “Tokyo” slipped my mind. And so I started asking myself. “Do I really want to go to Tokyo?“ I have heard and read different facts and opinions about Tokyo. They say that it is very expensive to live in Tokyo. Housing and commodities are literally expensive. The apartment I am currently renting only costs ￥28,000 with free internet access and unlimited water supply. My current location is strategic and fairly convenient with hospitals, supermarkets, convenience stores, bus stops, and work location within the 500 meter circumference. The folks around are friendly and polite. Some of them are even helpful. The Church community is warm and a family to me. And there is Nakamura Family who is very dear to me. I will lose all of these when I move to Tokyo. So “Do I really want to go there?”
I can hear my heart and the voice of God is the beating of my heart. It is telling me that I am now ready to open a new chapter of my life. And that I have to close the current one with a smile. “…yes I will move to Tokyo sooner or later.”